It feels weird to celebrate this win when I’m still in the thick of grief. But here I am, at the tail end of this big refit project. I don’t know what I’m going to do next. I can really only look about 3 days ahead, and even that is a challenge, but I’m doing my best to care for myself while I mend my heart. I may go into Canada. I may bop around the San Juan Islands. The only thing I know for certain: I need to be in nature. I need to be in the water. So, I will head out this week. #scubadiver #boatrestoration #griefrecovery

Abby’s passing has changed everything. I feel lost. Thankfully I have a solid recovery program and community. For the first time, I feel comfortable asking for and receiving help. I also asked SV Azulita to be my safe little island right now. I’ve poured so much love and energy into her and now she’s holding me gently as I cry every day ❤️‍🩹 #sobrietyjourney